When we moved from the city to a rural property during the first wave of the pandemic, I never would have expected how long it took us to find community. We met our neighbours shortly after moving, but with a few acres between houses, you could literally go weeks without seeing anyone around. We even connected with a few home school families that were sadly torn asunder with the polarities of hot bed topics during the pandemic.
I often wonder why it’s so bloody hard. People are busy, and have jobs, and are flakey, and have different visions for things... I don’t know. You’d think it’s what many people would want but perhaps not.
It is so hard. And depending on the week we're in with my cycle, the act of finding community can make me feel so lonely and can so deeply affect my ego. Thoughts like, "Why don't they like me? What did I say wrong? What is it about us??" will eat me up (for that week or two) and well, it really sets me back. Not to mention only have a week or so a month, that I feel like showing up for others! But as the gatekeeper of our family's social life, I push myself so much harder than I wish I needed to because we truly do not want to do life alone.
omg the social anxiety! I feel you deeply Julia. Not to mention the rejection of people when they're "too busy" or just simply forget to call back. My skin is not tough but I try and remind myself that other peoples' is and it's not personal for them. Sending solidarity!!
I often wonder why it’s so bloody hard. People are busy, and have jobs, and are flakey, and have different visions for things... I don’t know. You’d think it’s what many people would want but perhaps not.
not to mention free options, right??
It is so hard. And depending on the week we're in with my cycle, the act of finding community can make me feel so lonely and can so deeply affect my ego. Thoughts like, "Why don't they like me? What did I say wrong? What is it about us??" will eat me up (for that week or two) and well, it really sets me back. Not to mention only have a week or so a month, that I feel like showing up for others! But as the gatekeeper of our family's social life, I push myself so much harder than I wish I needed to because we truly do not want to do life alone.
omg the social anxiety! I feel you deeply Julia. Not to mention the rejection of people when they're "too busy" or just simply forget to call back. My skin is not tough but I try and remind myself that other peoples' is and it's not personal for them. Sending solidarity!!